These past couple weeks were a whirlwind. Ive had my mind nonstop 24/7 on my clients projects and am now finally feeling settled. Here are some photos from the last couple weeks. Resetting my life, my mind, my space. Thanks for reading.
Evolution of works in progress.
My parents got me a loop pedal for my Birthday.
Gotta plug and play.
Every moment is an opportunity to begin. Take a deep breath. Feel. I am hard on myself. I’m working on that. I have dreams of becoming someone I am proud of and I see the path right in front of me. I am on that path. Staying on that path means listening to myself and taking action. Time is precious, our most valuable resource. How are we spending our time. Eliminate distraction. Recognize and unlearn bad habits, reprogram. Find yourself. Create more art. Always be creating. Be curious, try new things. meet new people. Walk the same road with different shoes. Walk a different road with the same shoes. Get off the road and make your own path. This movie is about Life. My life. My thoughts, my dreams and my fears. I’m focused on finishing ideas. I am great at bringing people together, I am great at working with ideas though I find it challenging to finish my own, which is why I am hard on myself and why I must stay focused. I saw a video yesterday about relationships. We all seek love in one way or another. The videos message was to stop looking for love and to love yourself. Laugh with yourself. Dance with yourself. Stop telling other people how to love, how to live and tell yourself. Be that person. Stop filling other peoples cups and start filling your own. I have moments of detachment and moments where I find myself. I trust that my path holds experiences and people I align with for a life full of happiness and Love, I create this. My intention is that my art, my stories and my experiences will inspire others to break free from judgement and live their biggest life.
It was quiet just a moment ago and time didn’t exist.
I’ve been cleaning up shop and getting excited for the new wave of work Im about to produce. I have no idea what it will be but I feel it. I’m also realizing that with time and experience I continue to learn how to best organize myself in alignment with my dream life. I have a lot of open ended personal projects. Ideas I started and have the intention of finishing but haven’t made the time to do so. Not finishing also means not sharing with the world. Not sharing with the world is not me, so I have to change that. Here’s some more recent work.
It’s no longer about writing something down here everyday. It’s just about creating. It’s about using each day to produce and create something that’s never existed before.
The energy cannot lie. This is how I feel inside. I don’t know what this means. When I lose my “self” (to thought) and let it all happen (freedom) this is what pours out.
Monday. Monday morning meeting. It went well, but its easy to get caught up in work and the day to day habitual motions. In my world I finished this drawing. I have to keep reminding myself that the time will always go by, now, now, now and that one of my favorite ways to spend time is creating art.
Hey You. It’s been about 4 months since I’ve made an entry… At least it hasn’t been 5. I’m back home here in Los Angeles’ Arts District and it feels nice. It’s been very wet and rainy here in LA since my return from South America. I’ve realized that I don’t mind the rain. It creates a nice mood and it will pass.
“It’s not what you look at that matters, it’s what you see.”
And it’s true. It’s also primed the earth for new life, spring, growth and rosebuds. Two weeks ago Luna and I went camping. We went north in search of new views (I usually head south or east in the deserts). And upon leaving LA I realized how GREEN the mountains were, I’m used to seeing them dry and brown. Desert Bloom is around the corner for a few deserts. Maybe we’ll go check those out. We ended up at Chimney Peak Wilderness. This is just south of the southern entrance to Sequoia National Park. We hit the backroads and we went up the peak, it was snowing on top and we hopped out to get a few photos in.
Then we made our way back down to search for a campsite. It was pretty easy to find one, about a mile in from the main road in plain sight we found some stones creating a fire ring and that was it. We set up camp as the sun was setting and gathered sticks to make a fire. Temps dropped more than I expected and sleep was a bit restless extra thick socks would have come in handy.
All in all a nice little excursion and some new sites added to the memory bank.
In other news, I have a few projects in pre-production, a commercial and a few music videos. Bombora got accepted into a few festivals (LA, NY, LONDON) and I’m inspired to rework the concept for bigger impact.
I started running a little over a week ago, about 30 minute runs around the neighborhood. Its nice to see the neighborhood and really feel like a part of it. I started living here about 7 years ago… the time wont stop and this place keeps growing.
Back to enjoying my Sunday. Hope to post more often.
Wow. Time flew by and I didn’t keep the blog going. I actually got into the habit of writing blog entries later in the day but never got around to finish and post them. I think its better practice for me to write in the morning. Come to think of it, knowing myself, anything that I want to do (or need to do for that matter) I should do in the early morning. My goal with this is to create real momentum surrounding real things that are going on in my mind / my life.
Meditate / Workout / Blog those are 3 things that escaped me last week. Because of that, I am going to put into practice giving each day an intention. Time is super precious and so much of it goes to waste simply because we don’t manage ourselves well. You’d think that over time we’d get better and better (and we do) but it’s a constant push we have to give ourselves to Keep Going. Discipline.
I find my thoughts are often, How can I be better? How can I eat better? How can i improve my productivity, my life, my business?
It’s a never-ending task, keeping up with ourselves. Anyway, I already worked out today, and here I am writing the blog so todays intention is to meditate for 30 min.
I did paint last week. I sense my work changing, I’m not sure what direction it’s headed in but I’m going letting go and going with no-direction, open to what happens. Some pieces below from last week.
Lots of building going on. Above is a screenshot from a cool project I worked on that was released today. We shot about 4 days with some pick-ups. Thankful to be part of such an awesome team of smart and hardworking people. Learning so much through all of these projects. Currently prepping for another shoot going down this Thursday. Stay tuned. Lets Get It.
You can see some BTS images here —> JS X GSTAR : FORCES OF NATURE
I had a great conversation with my long-time friend Justin Blake last night about life. We touched on what we’ve learned, how we’ve changed, how we’ve stayed the same and how we’d like to move forward. The conversation ranged from our childhood memories to things we used to do and how we used to think. We talked about woman (always), art (also always), nature, our purpose, recent memories, challenges, new perspectives and things we are working on changing.
“The unexamined life is not worth living…” - Socrates
Justin and I grew up together in and around Ann Arbor, Michigan and are fortunate to live miles away from each other here in Los Angeles. We get together often and check in on ourselves and catch up on all things life like we did yesterday.
Last night, the take-away from our conversation was, “Be in Process”. What does that mean? We defined being in process as being present in our purpose. Always evolving, taking action, being in motion versus being static and thinking about doing. We shed away our past (mistakes) and also let go of future (expectations). What remains is our truth, where we stand in this moment. Being in process is being honest with ourselves of how far we’ve come, how we feel now with our lives in this moment and living / working from that honest place with-in.
Another way I thought about this is there is no way to paint a painting without painting, like there is no way to write a story without writing. Therefore there is no way to live a life without living, doing and taking action. Instead of thinking about painting the painting. Start the painting. Our lives ARE the painting.
If we are at peace, present and honest, then we are in the perfect place to move forward with intention into our purpose, and constantly re-adjust to the fluid landscape of our senses and our feelings.
There are endless ways and perspectives to look at our lives from. We found that we are highly blessed, to be alive and healthy, to be young and creative, to be living in LA, to be working on ourselves, our art.
Inviting everyone reading this to exercise “being in process” with whatever calls you in this moment.
I woke up today and fell back asleep. I said I’d finish organizing photos, that I’d go to the gym, that I’d send that e-mail, that I’d make that call, and I didn’t**.
We all have plans, either written down or in our heads (I suggest writing them down). Almost always, we know what we should be doing, our next step, the important one (they all are) that leads us to that thing we want, or that feeling we want. And we often tell ourselves, this is it, this is the day, today I will do this, I will start this, I will finish this.
Yes, those days happen, we feel inspired or “in flow” as some may say and those days are fun, they’re easy.
But, what about all the other days? When we don’t feel like doing it, when we’re feeling lazy, when it’s cloudy and rainy outside. When we get a parking ticket or miss out on a really cool opportunity?
Those are the days we must use to build ourselves, reprogram our habits by challenging our minds to choose action. Their are a lot of things that we will NEVER feel like doing. Sometimes ever. Do them anyway. Just go. Jump in. Whatever it is that you don’t want to do, that you know will take you forward, make you grow, Do It. Make it a Habit. Don’t think. You already know. And I’m here to remind myself of this, and you, that today we must do for ourselves and for the world. Because it takes work to make great ideas happen. Because I know that our future is created first by our thoughts and second by our actions, and I believe that we all have a voice inside us that knows what’s right for us.
Find that voice, listen to it, today. Don’t wait till tomorrow.
We got this.
Below is a video a friend sent me of Mel Robbin giving a Tedx Talk titled “How to stop screwing yourself over”. This video inspired this post. I recommend checking it out if self development / personal growth interests you.
** I was just saying that to make a point. I wrote most of this this morning and actually did make it to the gym, no photo organization though :/
New experiences... I just came back from Buenos Aires.
What was unique about this trip is: 1) I didn’t tell anyone I was going, and 2) I didn’t plan anything out. It was complete free flow. I decided on the trip from one day to the next, booked a flight, and said “Buenos Aires… here I come!”.
Why didn’t I tell anyone?
Well, I actually did tell one person, my brother, Alan (for safety reasons). But aside from him, NO ONE from home had any clue that I had gone anywhere, some people may just be learning this now...
It made me feel alive to get up and go. I felt empowered to make such a bold choice, a sense of freedom and adventure, reminding me of the power we all have in our lives to change things, to do things, to create things and experiences.
It was similar to the “off-the-grid” feeling I get when I’m in the backcountry camping without cell phone service. It’s this “travel” high I experience when I think about seeing new places. I find myself giddy with excitement, like going on a date with a super cute chick or getting new paints and brushes.
What is it that causes us to light up? To Feel alive?
For me, in this case, perhaps it’s the unknown factor. Going on a trip somewhere unfamiliar / getting to know someone new. I feel especially high the night before the trip, when I’m packing and the new experiences are hours away, I usually can’t sleep, always triple checking to make sure I’ve got my essentials and left my home in order.
Their was something special about this trip and leaving the present-future (about a weeks time) open to exploration in a new city. This feeling of the unknown / possibility excites me in the same way a new canvas and art materials excite me. The canvas is a place where anything can happen. I live for these moments. For creating moments like these and encouraging others to create these types of moments in their lives. I often wonder what drives people. What makes them tick. What makes them feel alive. . .
My goal for October is to create and share. Above is a drawing I did today.
See you tomorrow,
I’m writing this because Seth Godin told me to. If you don’t know who Seth Godin is don’t worry because I also just found out about him. He is an entrepreneur and public speaker who I found super inspiring because of his unique outlook on how to do business and how to live you life. My father was the one brought him up. Go Check him out!—> https://www.sethgodin.com/
From the little I know about the man, I quickly caught on that he’s not a traditional thinker, he’s a future thinker and a present actor / do-er. I appreciate that and am taking his advice, he challenged me to write a blog entry for 30-days and promises life changing results. I’ve tried blogging but never shared (See former posts) and I haven’t written anything here in about a year an a half… time time time. Flying by. That’s me thinking about the past again, which is gone, gotta remember to focus on now. This. Anyway, I’m opening myself up to the idea. This is Day 1.
Enough about that. I’m here for the art. I have so many ideas it’s hard to keep up. Over the weekend I bought 3 Medium sized canvas’ and some new super FAT brushes and have been painting some new pieces. At first, I was planning something, like…. hmmm should I do this? Should I try that? How about if I did something like this…? Then I just said fuck it and dipped the brush into the paint and got started. I decided I would figure it out on the way.
When’s the right moment to start? For me, that was it, right then, start now and adjust - the same mentality I bring to this blog entry. I have no plan for this, it is what it is. ——-
Back to the Art, the sensation of painting and not knowing exactly what I will create is part of the fun, I also just really like watching the color take hold and change the canvas. Call it what you want, stream of consciousness, freedom, all I know is that I created something, something that I felt was me free from the influence of my mind maybe “thought-less” is the word, though, thought-less in the best sense, meaning “present-FULL” and honest… to that moment, no mistakes.
Take a look at the snaps below and stay with me, no one us knows whats next so let’s keep creating, keep open minds, watch life unfold, and remember that anything is possible. . . and everything starts with you. So get started and Keep Going ***
Also **** If you want to check out a video of Mr. Seth Godin in action. I recommend this video below:
Making edits to my page. Havent posted anything in a while. But I have been writing and creating consistently. Today I launch the online version of my Gallery 2017 project.
"To Create Space / Time To Explore, to Let Go, to Be Free . . . And to trust my feelings. I share with you moments of my life, a visual gallery of exploration into myself, one drawing everyday for an entire year. . . Mistakes (don't exist), breakthroughs, failures and successes share the same space. Guided by Intuition."
I am one month in, and have enjoyed the process. Don't feel like writing more. So thats it!
Took an inspiring walk this afternoon. This is the Ford Place (Factory) across the street from Basecamp 101. I have a feeling that Five Towers will grow into something like this above. Its an exciting time building this business. Moving the space around me, painting with life. Creating my dreams. #Blessed
I just came back from Mt. Baldy. It was a spontaneous trip. Finding that I need to work on finishing ideas. So many ideas. unfinished. I have to create the habit of finishing what I start. Very very important. I am aware and act accordingly. The new place is coming along nicely. Alan set up a projector wall home theater room. Just dropping a line tp drop a line. Everything in life is good. Thankful to be in this blessed space / time with so many opportunities at my fingertips. Unfolding and back in . . .
Here I am, not avoiding this just not make space / time for it. This is where i'd rather be I tell myself. Creating. Output. Working with this space / time. I am at whole foods and just had a kale salad. It was pretty good but im still hungry. Why am I hungry? Do I need more food? Is that a desire too? So many thoughts where are you going? Always here in this space / time. When we focus our energy in this space / time we accomplish whatever our intention is. The more we can act in the present towards the future of our dreams, the closer we arrive. Never arriving but always inside the dream. Your dream. What are you doing right now? Is it really what you want to be doing? Are you being honest with yourself? Your feelings? It feel good to let it out. So let it out. Get it on the page, outside of you. Heres a photo I took of me stripping two layers of paint off of rack shelving we are about to set up for the new FIVE TOWERS office studio rental space.
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